I simply pushed her out.
I was hurting and didn’t control myself.
Now she’s gone without a doubt.
Because I hate what I have done,
I’ll hate myself forever.
I have no respect for who I’ve become,
No chance for change, no, never.
I am older than I am wise;
There is a point of no return.
I’ve come this far and can only surmise
That what I have left will burn.
I can’t go forward, and I dare not go back.
I’m stuck in this position.
I missed the whole point of what I couldn’t hack,
So now I’m without a mission.
I’m without her.
I can’t do this alone.